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I wonder every time I
want to write, what to write
and from where do I begin. I
am not going to write about
a dear friend or a love
relation, it is rather a
story and it is for sure a
lovely one. It is better to
live with a challenge rather
than to live just to live,
with the challenge you learn
a very important and nice
thing in life, HOPE.
Well, dear Cancer, though I
don't like you but as long
as there is an understanding
between us then fine and
welcome. If you came into my
life to test me, then be my
guest. I know you for a long
time now, since 2006 when
you started in my breast and
we ended up with a
mastectomy. You thought at
that time you defeated me,
well I had a very lovely
plastic surgery and
reconstructed the place you
ruined. The battle did not
stop there, I knew you will
come back even after having
the radiotherapy and 8
cycles of chemotherapy.
Never mind, you liked the
way I was annoyed from the
medications but somehow I
managed to stay up and look
healthy and ignore you. So,
I am ready to struggle
again. I took and still
taking medications of
different types continuously
with non stop for 4 years
now. There are many ways to
defeat you; the most
important is to ignore you.
In fact, who are you? Where
are you now? Oh, ok on the
bone now. No problem, for
four years on the bone and
you were very painful most
of the times but thank the
radiation which helped a lot
and the pain killers. I also
lost my hearing, my sight
became short, and I forgot
what the word hair means,
nails are broken, no
appetite and many other side
effects occurred. Actually,
I managed to forget most of
them.
But, who are
you?? You are not death,
this is for sure. I might
die in a car accident or so,
its all God's will. I know
that you are my challenge in
life but it is worth it.
Yes, it is worth it to live
for many reasons even with
or without you Cancer. There
are many more awful things
in life than you.
I
decided to live with you,
with all the strengths and
weaknesses I have, with all
the faith I have for God and
with all the love for my
kids. I will live with you
my way and your way. I did
many wigs with different
colors and hair styles so
that I can enjoy my new look
everyday. I put with each
wig different style of
makeup to suit it with
different style of cloths. I
never cared what people
thought or what they might
say. The challenge was how
good I am in hiding your
fact; most of the people
around me including my kids
do not know that I even have
you in my life. That's why I
will not mention my name. My
daughter always admired me
and she still does. She
wants to study fashion
design when she grows up
because of my different
beautiful styles. What?? Oh
yes I can hear you, I am
using the best hearing aid,
though I cannot swim because
of the ears problems but I
can sunbath. I could use
false nails whenever I don't
like my weak ones. I have
many other health problems,
but I am not here to discuss
it with you my dear Cancer.
I will only talk about the
nice and lovely things I am
doing. I am planning to open
a small business now and
hopefully to expand in the
future, also I am working on
the reconstruction of my
house in my home country.
With the help and support of
my family and kids and GOD I
will accomplish them all.
Dear Cancer, you taught
me what hope means and I
made you become a looser.
Sorry, but you don't have to
be the winner always. By the
way, I did a very recent
operation two weeks ago and
I removed my ovaries. Still,
many things to come...
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